Unlucky Year

A bad bad Rabbit year for me.
My first post in 2011 bear with bad news.

Llllooooooooooonnnggg SIGH~
I lost my IPod4
I lost my job
I lost my car
I nearly lost my neck..

haha~ I got sandwich in a car accident yesterday
My car is in a wreck, but thank to my car also I am safe.
4 car in a chain-reaction
My car the second car from impact
If you can't imagine how bad is it, let me show you in low res photo





Super Duper Depress
Anyone can prescript me with anti-depression
...before i do anything to myself again...

Happy winter solstice

Is that time again~
It was lonely this year without grandma and grandpa.
Then again, we will keep the tradition on.
Been a few years I didn't celebrate and I kind of miss it.
I miss 3 years of celebrating it with my grandparent.

Sigh~ grandmama I miss you alot...
This year I plan to make different flavor tong yuan.
Add variety and color in life~

Wooohoooo~
reply me at last!!!
Well~ now depend how well I do.
Finger cross
Pray hard
Ah Ma Ah Yeh look out for me <3

where is the snow?

is the time of the year and i am super bored
so this is some random i done in less than 1 hour..
more of it coming if there is no plans ...

Woken up by my own tears

Waoh still cant believe i was woke up finding myself in tears

seriously~

i never "real" cry in my sleep before..

wait i think there is one time but just near the eye

haven drop.. i dream about having a HUGE fight with my mom

and my mom dun want me anymore...hahahah ok.

I had a nightmare.

Thank to Nathra actually

hehe~

Nathra posted in her FB that she L.O.V.E. pets more than people

which i totally agree cause me too!

well story cut short

i told her about i cry for weeks after curly passed away

and she though Pitt pass away

then the very night...

you know la, Pitt died

i took it badly

i appear normal then somehow i break and cry like shit

real hard and long

cant remember all the detail cause is a dream

then i woke up in the middle of the night

2 tear rolling down on my cheek

......

i seriously love that fat dog

I LOVE YOU PITT

i duno wat will happen if pitt really die

......

argh~!! dun think about it

I dun handle DEATH well

ok.

sign off

Sick sick world

seriously, how sick can this world we live in now?

Just checking out my FB b4 i go to bed

and i saw 2 very sick video tat now i cant sleep

1. http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/video/video.php?v=1301612375715

a video about a 4 year old boy smoking cigarette like drinking frm the bottle

It is in Indonesian language so I do not know what the kid is talking

but based on the caption ... "lucah" = porn

the adult is encouraging him or maybe teaching him

2. http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=117837198253611#!/video/video.php?v=117837198253611

a japanese student being strip naked and tortured

I wonder what is in the bottle that the girl was force to drink

They kick her, slap her, beat her till bleed.

I bet they even rape her before this.

Just hearing she screaming "stop" made my hair stand.

What is wrong with this world

It's getting so sick and inhumane

I want to vomit now ...

... loging off

Sleep Paralysis

Finally~! i come to light

about my fully conscious, but unable to move sleep state

i had a daymare again

this time i dream about myself in a room, not my room

trying to sleep then i felt someone watching me

very close by.. but i cant see him/her..

then i had a little bit of panic and scared feeling

that is when i fall into the fully conscious but unable to move state

i try to move very hard cause i got more scared of "the thing"

i was getting exhausted then i manage to move

but very slow..take 2X effort to move and like floating

i fall frm bed..moving back up to bed slowly

then i heard children voice out in my window

i snapped out of the state and move to the window

i was in a 4-5lvl building

i looked down.. a lvl below there is 4 children

walking in a narrow boulder crossing to the next building which is a school

then i saw Pitt behind them .. he looked up at me

happily jump around

then..he jump down from one lvl to another ( like playing a game 0_o)

Pitt SLIPPed ..!! and fell down from 3 lvl

he manage to grab and dangle on the electric wire o_0

but the fall in the end

i was stun..turn around and run down the stair murmuring his name

when i reach down .. there is a commotion.

Alot of ppl, and dad try to keep ppl out

Pitt waslicking his wound.. i cant really see how bad

he got smaller somehow..then he turn around looking at me

he lost one leg..and bloody. the other leg is like crippled

then i woke up....NIGHTMARE

i missed PITT

i hate FINALS

Ohya~ i finally get the name of the illness i am suffering

SLEEP PARALYSIS

occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the body paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. The paralysis can last from several seconds to several minutes "after which the individual may experience panic symptoms.

CAUSE

• Sleeping in a face upwards or supine position
• Irregular sleeping schedules; naps, sleeping in, sleep deprivation
• Increased stress

The original definition of sleep paralysis was codified by Dr Johnson in his A Dictionary of the English Language as "nightmare," a term that evolved into our modern definition

need more melatonin in food diet .. banana, tomatoes, sunseed, etc