been a relly busy month
attended 3 wedding in a month row
and 1 three months ago
grandpa just passed away
9.55, january 23, saturday
"death"
i dont how i am feeling now
tear just keep rolling down and i cant control
i am kind of numb
expressionless
speechless
I manage to see my grandpa on friday
irony is i see him suffer
sometimes i think my grandma is revenging
she just kept on stuffing lots of food inside grandpa mouth
spoonful and hot food shove down the troat
revenge for what?
revenge for making her suffer with him
grandma was consider a rich daugther
but after married to my grandpa she experience poverty
working hard to earn money and take care of 7 children
My grandma was shoving porridge into my grandpa mouth
..when he lost consious
i think my grandpa choke
then lost consious
then my grandma panic and started to called everyone
we were in a friend's wedding when aunt called
my aunt called hospital and get an ambulance
took 15 minute to come
took some blood..pump his heart
took him into the ambulance
said his heart vy weak
(all this my aunt told us co we haven reach bac)
on our way, the car died
then dad restart and pump hard
(my maternal grandpa died more than 10 years ago
same thing happen before he died
The car my mom riding to get back to kk also die half way
when my mom reach, grandpa already died half an hour ago
the exact time the car die)
do you believe it was a sign from my grandpa
i believe it was
when the car died
i had a feeling that grandpa already gone
he die 3 minute before we arrived
nobody saw his late face as doctor wouldnt let us in
tear start rolling down
but i am somehow glad my grandpa passed
91 year old..quite a number there
He live long enough to see all the grandchildren grow up
see his eldest grandson get married
that is more than fulfilling and enough
He should die happy
when we left the "jak kun"(place they put the decease)
i saw an old male dog
weak and cant walk properly
got skin disease
(just like grandpa condition)
he was looking at each of our car
then my mom walk and enter the car
the old dog is gone
i had a feeling that is grandpa
taking his last look at all of us
as he didnt had a chance to see us before he die
kah hou and jewei n su yin coming back today (sunday)
i should sign off now
it's 2.30 in the morning
i need sleep
my eye is tired from crying too much
tomorrow had a lot to do and worried
