4 wedding and 1 funeral

been a relly busy month

attended 3 wedding in a month row

and 1 three months ago

grandpa just passed away

9.55, january 23, saturday

"death"

i dont how i am feeling now

tear just keep rolling down and i cant control

i am kind of numb

expressionless

speechless

I manage to see my grandpa on friday

irony is i see him suffer

sometimes i think my grandma is revenging

she just kept on stuffing lots of food inside grandpa mouth

spoonful and hot food shove down the troat

revenge for what?

revenge for making her suffer with him

grandma was consider a rich daugther

but after married to my grandpa she experience poverty

working hard to earn money and take care of 7 children

My grandma was shoving porridge into my grandpa mouth

..when he lost consious

i think my grandpa choke

then lost consious

then my grandma panic and started to called everyone

we were in a friend's wedding when aunt called

my aunt called hospital and get an ambulance

took 15 minute to come

took some blood..pump his heart

took him into the ambulance

said his heart vy weak

(all this my aunt told us co we haven reach bac)

on our way, the car died

then dad restart and pump hard

(my maternal grandpa died more than 10 years ago

same thing happen before he died

The car my mom riding to get back to kk also die half way

when my mom reach, grandpa already died half an hour ago

the exact time the car die)

do you believe it was a sign from my grandpa

i believe it was

when the car died

i had a feeling that grandpa already gone

he die 3 minute before we arrived

nobody saw his late face as doctor wouldnt let us in

tear start rolling down

but i am somehow glad my grandpa passed

91 year old..quite a number there

He live long enough to see all the grandchildren grow up

see his eldest grandson get married

that is more than fulfilling and enough

He should die happy

when we left the "jak kun"(place they put the decease)

i saw an old male dog

weak and cant walk properly

got skin disease

(just like grandpa condition)

he was looking at each of our car

then my mom walk and enter the car

the old dog is gone

i had a feeling that is grandpa

taking his last look at all of us

as he didnt had a chance to see us before he die

kah hou and jewei n su yin coming back today (sunday)

i should sign off now

it's 2.30 in the morning

i need sleep

my eye is tired from crying too much

tomorrow had a lot to do and worried